I am writing about this because I have to some how apologise for the way that I am constantly not believing someone because they had lost my trust. I will try to be patient.
I was meant to be heartbroken – but I think I am too wrapped up in trying to do the right thing. When I was so wrapped up in that I felt like yes – my trust had broken.
Doing the right thing needs cooperation and so I am trying to be patient. I am so hurt by the actions of the other person right now that maybe the person sees that it’s the right thing to do and warranting means affirming a guarantee.
Trust is a fragile thing and I wasn’t expecting to learn a lesson as big as the one I just learned about relationships. I am not perfect it will take time for me to heal but actions speak louder than words and if a person generally cares about themselves they just wouldn’t do this sort of thing.
They are trapped in a world of pain themselves and I am a bigger person. I tried so hard to help and now I need certainty because I am not selfish I just don’t think anyone else should get hurt by the butterfly effect of someone being in a depressed state.
I can do this. I just need to be patient.
The world is weird and wonderful and I don’t really want to make the same mistake again. I am learning to try harder with my communication in so many languages and I must be patient with myself also.
Weird & ₩○NdeRf#ll _____